Sleep is for the Weak

I am a fan of sleep. My sleep schedule on the other hand, is not a fan of me...

This may sound like a crazy thing to say; however, I have a terrible time sleeping. I stay awake at night thinking. I think about what I should be doing if I'm not gonna sleep (dishes, laundry etc). I consider the "deeper" meaning of song lyrics. I prolly give more "additional" meanings to songs than I would care to admit in polite company.

Here's the thing... I don't think it's really a sleep problem. I fell asleep last week in like 2 seconds in the middle of a living room floor face down. I haven't slept face down in ages. Normally the only time I sleep face down is when I physically don't fell well. My momma swears its my version of the fetal position bc she says she laid me down that way back in the day. Anyway, I do have a hard time falling asleep in strange places. In fact, the first night on a vacation or just about anywhere I am not familiar with, I don't sleep much.

However, I have noticed that there are exceptions to the "me no sleepy" thing I've got going on. It has nothing to do with thread count in the sheets, nothing to do with the firmness of the mattress- remember I slept like a rock face down on the living room floor last week... I think it's more about who I am around. It's a comfort level.

At first glance I thought it was just that I was around persons I am comfortable with. I am casting off that idea as if that were true I should sleep well at home, also I slept nearish a friend of mine a while back but still had nightmares. Thus it's not just comfort. And it's not about being safe or not because all of the locations that I attempt sleep I am safe.

The only difference is who I am near.

Put me near people I am comfortable with  and have not  single secret...
 and BAM!
I'm sleep like the survivors after a zombie apocalypse.

The idea that my sub-conscience is more in control of my sleep than my conscience...

now that...

That will give me plenty to ponder tonight when I am tossing, turning, and contemplating life.