Thoughts like a lava lamp

I don't think that my internal thoughts are exactly the same as everyone elses'. No I do not believe that I am some stellar genius, far far from it. And I don't think I am a psychopath. I just think that maybe my thought process is unique and unusual. I like to think of it as a gift in the same way that people describe some birth defects "gifts". They are not good or bad but rather just apart of my dna.

Anyway back to my brain and it's inner workings. I used to get frustrated that people don't understand how my brain made it's "leaps" and I can jump from one subject to another with grand rapidness. I have come to terms with this now. I do sometimes struggle with the fact that rarely do people like my randomness. And often my leaps make me seem scatterbrained. The truth of the matter is completely opposite. I overthink things. I overanalyze things. I think 15 things but only mention 3. I have found it makes people less uncomfortable and less apt to look at me with the crazy face if I only explain the 3. 

For example, I walk down the hall at school. I see a kid with a turquoise shirt and think of shopping with the roommate, I think of my favorite Easter dress in 6th grade, I think of finding Robin's eggs shells when I was 5, I think of that blue eyed boy I kissed at Czech Fest in 7th grade with the sun on my face, I think of the sky before the storm, I think of the blue sheets I ordered for my first big girl bed when I was 4 or 5 with the sleeping puppies on them, I think of that one man and that one shirt he wears and how he looks hot in it and how I lose my cool with him, I think of a thousand things that are all either blue or turquoise and I get lost in my head for about 5 min. Yes, 5 min.

Yes, most people have triggers in their head that are caused by memories. A lot of people have scent memories. What I mean to say is memories that are triggered by scent. For example certain soaps or perfumes that make them think of baking cookies at Grandma's house. Or the cologne the boy they crushed on it 8th grade wore and sat in front of them in Geometry. But for my brain... it's like the old "Family Circus" comic with the little boy who visits 20 places just to get from the mailbox to the front door. Now take that kind of internal triggering, add a visual memory, a sensitivity to color, add that fact that I am emotional and love life and the fact that memories are only stored IF you have an emotional reaction....

Needless  to say what you end up with is a constantly over working brain that looks like a kaleidoscope inside a lava lamp....and the whole thing set on EXTRA crazy.

Glub..glub... clink.